the way some fill about GOD , I can understand. ''it's satan''
I love the lord ,but I get mad at him at time's,my life has been very sad,and at time's full of anger.not being able to understand ''WHY!!!!!!!!!! THING'S HAPPEN THE WAY THEY DO!!!!.
BUT I fill very confussed a lot of times and sorry for getting angry at GOD. I have felt like saying [hell with it all] how can their be a GOD,and if it is a GOD he musssssst hate me.
BUT I must let you know at one time I wanted to take my life,and still do at times,BUT I don't for this reason below
THE night I was going to take my life, GOD new I had given up on life, I had no more strength to even open my eye's.
the room I was in was ''pitch black'' a calm filling came over me and a bright yellow gold light surrounded me and the head of the bed and at that moment I saw my mom's spirit and with out a word I felt god's love around me. IT was no doubt that it was ''GOD''. and even though i still stuggel each and every day,I can not wonder if their is a god [for i know he was in my room that cold sad endless night[ FOR ME]] AND ONLY ME THAT NIGHT. ARE WAS HE THEIR JUST FOR ME? [maybe it was ment for those of you that are reading this, my testomony that GOD live's
oh one more thing [the next day i woke up.and looked over my head where the bright light was and to my surprise, a pitcher of jesus