I am going to quote another explanation of what I am trying to say that was simply stated better. The source is...
http://forums.philosophyforums.com/showthread.php?t=5261
Words of a poor soul...
"This is somewhat of a plea for help, as I've contracted this damn awful concept one or two years ago and I haven't been able to shake it since. On the contrary, the more I think about it and read upon, I find myself sinking in quicksand, and my everyday life is slipping away from me. I become more self conscious of my activities, and am rendered impotent as to making any value judgments.
This paralysis is called hard determinism.
The actual argument is very simple, but counterintuitive because all of our lives we have been asked to make choices. We do in fact make choices, but they are all determined wholly outside of our control. We are merely puppets on strings. Well, this is a little off on a dramatic tangent, to the argument:
You are born. Two cases:
a) You are a tabula rasa, then everything imprinted onto you from agents outside of yourself.
b) You are not a tabula rasa. Only part of "you" is obtained from agents outside of yourself. However, the part you are born with comes from other factors as well (say, the human genetic algorithm which embeds you with instincts, for instance). What I am saying is that when you are born, the data that is in you as a newborn is supplied from outside of "you".
So, you're a newborn and so far all that defines you has come from outside factors. You've just "stepped into" this new body. Now, fast forward to your current age, and you're face with two cups, tea and coffee. Make a decision on which to have.
The argument of hard determinism is that you do not actually have a choice. The choice you make will be based on your life experience and what you were born with. All these characteristics come from an outside factor, through the argument of causality. There is a reason you prefer tea to coffee (if that is your preference). This reason did not come from you. You were born with a taste for tea. You were raised in an environment where your parents grew you up on tea. Both of these are obviously outside of your control.
Or perhaps you read an article on the benefits of tea. This reading action is of your own accord, yes? You decided to read the article? No. Somehow, the idea was engrained into you that reading research reports of the substances you put into your body is good. Someone told you reading is good. You had no control over this opinion forming within you. You might say, well, I have an opinion as to the benefits of reading, which I used in judging the benefits of reading research reports. All of this is the same argument: by causality, all that currently makes up "you" is traceable to agents outside of yourself. You have been shaped by all things outside of your control.
If you extend this argument, you'll see that there is not possible way to randomly decide in tea or coffee. It's not satisfactory for me to argue it, you have to think about it a little on your own for a convincing result. Follow the above logic out. But, for example, if I have a tea preference, but am aware a hard determinist is hounding me with his bothersome questions, I will choose coffee just to prove him wrong. Ah, this choice was made because of the intrusion of the determinist and of my preference to tea. Both outside of my control, thus I never had any free will in choosing coffee.
Now, a way that some tried to argue against determinism is with quantum mechanics, which disproved classical physics. However, this only concerns atomic behavior, and on a macroscopic scale of a human being, quantum randomness does not in any way interfere with hard determinism. The universe it itself might not be causal and deterministic, but human beings themselves (amongst other things) are.
This concept is very troubling. The first immediate consequence is that you have a set path in life which you will follow. All the decisions you will make are inevitable, arising from a snapshot of the world at the moment of your birth, for instance. The only consolation you might have is that this path is unknown to you, and it seems like you are making decisions. Even though when faced with tea or coffee, the decision is inevitable, you still have to actively think about a decision, to reach the inevitable conclusion.
Furthermore, there is a total breakdown of the punishment and merit system. If someone becomes a criminal, you might want to jail her parents or agents that created that person, as opposed to the actual person herself. She was merely a victim to the inevitable path of her life. Similarly, if someone discovers a cure for cancer, it was an inevitable consequence of the environment and genetic lottery. He has done nothing extraordinary is finding the cure, having merely followed the causal path of his life.
I can see no way around hard determinism. The only real comfort is that I sometimes forget about it, and actually think that I'm choosing and living freely. Furthermore, whenever I do something stupid, I can tell myself that it was meant to be, not in any mystical fate way, but by a purely logical argument. However, the fact that we're all slaves to determinism and ultimately only being led along a path outside of choice is painfully troubling. Furthermore, it's easy to imagine a comprehensive scanning technology that takes a snapshot of a roughly isolated system (say earth at the instance of one's birth) and play a simulation at increased speed, thereby predicting an individual's life, with perfect accuracy.
I would be very grateful if someone could disprove hard determinism.
In the absence of that, can you please tell me how you deal with it "