Old poetry

(Found these today, i was an unhappy child, not really any happier as a grown-up but at least i am a nearly a man)

The time is blank

Playing your Jack before it is dealt
Time cowardly shirking its count
Four oclock the universes embrace uncertainty
Four the hour before or the after
All else goes without ever starting
Without hesitation, fasting
Until the clock climbs its tick
Falling back down without the hit
Selling all with nothing to gain
But not bereaved in the faith
That which would serve to harness
Religion cannot be directed
Guide the visions of your own accord
Not restored, there is no Lord
Control where questions could always go
To where but the wakeful screaming
To hear is not to know
Life pretentions always bellow
The brain only commanding
The eyes hollow
Worlds will cry if awake
Only one tear will start the chain-event
So time ticks on with a tock in hand
Rips nothing from me
Head needs rest a place to land
Dreams holds little resolution
When you have been drinking all day
Little enough poor confusion
Dream the truth something to conquer
Still no name for the secret token
Sensing the next minute to the last
No point to pin on but the sight
Laying down but not letting go
Kiss my head let me slow
Good only comes if released
Please small world let me sleep
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Phrophecy

With modern effeciency you cry
Aristocracy of peoples bleed
Slaughtering pasts come back
Haunted need
Symetrically shot at the sun
Only reaching a close moon
Syzigy rules the chosen
Women dont weep for the damned
Kindly does as is not detachment
Delusion in own beliefs
Heated words just the same
Vine in hand and flower in braid
Drunkard of hope
Spirits do consume the wine
Bring the decantor queer delusion
Ghostly realsiation and strength
Be still without your breath
Governed by night
But who could judge,
A future biased on past
Save us?
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Secondary sentiment

'You live to hurt me'
(so you can hurt me?)
Secondary sentiment
'One day you'll understand'
(so toady i can be confused)
Secondary sentiment
'It's not you it's me'
(it really is you)
Secondary sentiment
'Smile and the whole world smiles with you'
(what if i spit?)
Seconday sentiment
'I'll always be there for you'
(if I'll always be there for you)
Secondary sentiment
'You dont understand me'
(so complex)
Secondary sentiment
'Let me help you'
(you are no good)
Secondary sentiment
'I wish i was you'
(wish you were inside me)
Secondary sentiment
'You've touched me'
(but you wont touch me)
Secondary sentiment
'I miss you'
(only if you remember to)
Secondary sentiment
'I would still die for you'
(and where would that leave me?)
Secondary sentiment
'You are my friend'
(I am not yours?)
Secondary sentiment
'I love you'
(you love me?)
'I love you'
(you need me to love you)
'I love you'
(where are you then?)

I added the brackets and what they hold tonight to try and in some way i suppose justify the orignial.
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I dont know why i posted these i dont rate them very much, being from the past, i suppose i was just being nostalgic, thanks for your time.