spur of the moment emotions.

she stood me up again.
when will i ever learn?
when's this gonna end?
my anger starts to grow
I resent you but
my heart won't let go
I know what i'm not and
I know what I am
I am the mat outside your door
as you slide your feet across the floor
I let you break me
I let you hate me
I let you **** me
I let you fake me
I feel so much pain
I use your name in vain
But when you call my name
I do not deny you
I am not strong
I let this drag on far too long
Give back my life
Give back my soul
Leave me once and for all
Give me the strength to break the fall