what they dont know

It started off as a way to control her emotions
scratching her face to subside her frustration
and as it gets worse
it's harder to hide
scars on her arms and face
she runs out of excuses
she starts doing it every day
and her mind tells her she can't stop
she can't break
she has to hold herself and her family together
she wants to cry
but the tears don't come
so she does the only thing that makes sense to her
cause when she bleeds she relieves herself
in her mind
God can't help her
if he could he wouldn't let her go through so much
she remembers getting beat by her mother
and molested by an older guy
and the thoughts keep replaying in her head
like it was just yesterday
they won't leave her
and she feels trapped by fear and confusion
she cries out but no one hears her
and she wonders when they will
maybe never
but she can't help but hope
that someday she will be saved from herself