@mrhunt,
You , in all your human and physiological knowledge realize you are compelled to learn everything you can thru the bible and many other sources, human learning and book learning, that You want to know much more about this Christ. And then the change takes place. He is in your thoughts and actions. As hard as You try You can still be very limited but you aspire to be the best You can, knowing what the Christ was, Then you find out all You have to do is repent and try to get your reward, eternal life, if that matters, yes it does. Push on, run the race, overcome, persevere, triumph, pray and realize there is a outstanding knowledge that comes to You.