You know TTHun
I hear what you're saying. I have learned over the years, I guess because of who (the powers that be in this country) and why (the systems that prevail in this country) I have had to fight my son's corner, that being intimidated wouldn't help me achieve what I wanted to get done in life.
I think I used to feel intimidated by folk, but have changed the way I view the world in the last few years. Now, I view everyone as an equal. No matter what they do, how they do it, how smart they are, what they look like, whether they are rich or poor, young or old - the "whole" window dressing to me these days, is
.. not important.
I know some may not believe me (which I fine), but I am really shy - really shy - when it comes to meeting someone or going out and walking into a pub, for instance, leave alone a board room of important people - I absolutely quake in my boots (or flatties as the case will be now). I have so little confidence in that respect. What I end up doing, is being a complete and total idiot - I kinda end up making a complete spectacle of myself and be totally mad and outrageous, talk nonsense and smile a lot - then they think I'm either nuts, or full of confidence. It's the only thing that works for me until I reach my comfort zone. Then I am just me - which can be fairly outrageous and a little on the bubbly side. It actually makes me feel pretty good too.
If I were going drag racing with a 100 guys - I would be cr*pping myself - but I would wear the brightest, loudest (probably pink or purple) racing suit - go out with my head held high, and tell myself that those guys are gonna eat dirt when I get in the car - then I would tell them the same thing. It wouldn't matter if I came first or last - the fact is - it would be an achievement just doing it.
Do what you want to do and don't let anyone intimidate you hun. You do it for you, and you alone.
The only thing I guess that intimidates me these days, is the black and scary world my eldest son lives in inside his head - and I'm not sure that is intimidation - just pure fear I think it is, for his future.
Anything else, well - everyone is equal in my world. Who they are on the inside warrants feelings of a good nature with me, if they are good people, and "no feelings" to worry about if they are not a good person. Anyone who attempts to make me feel less than I am - well, they can eat dirt. Anyone tries to intimidate you - know that YOU are a good person and be proud of you and what you are setting out to achieve - big or little, it doesn't matter. Achieve and achieve well. You can do it.
Judge no-one, don't let anyone judge you. I've been down that path - but not any longer. I view everyone as an equal until they do something to make me feel different. If they are nasty - then I won't view them any longer. It's not worth my time when there are more important things for me to be considering.
Hope you don't mind me yabbering on
as someone who can be very shy, and appear totally confident on the outside, it's something that's close to my heart
and as you know, I have my heart on my sleeve here.
(Bear - everyone knows you wouldn't say anything that would be meant to hit a nerve - so don't be
k)
