@kYRANI,
No, I am not a theist.
Theists endow their idea of god with a lot of human attributes such as identity and will, and then proceed to make assumptions about what god thinks is good and proper, wrong and sinful etc. based on their deification of an idea. The whole thing takes on a new dimension, and the most extreme find justification for murder in their idea, while the more moderate people restrict themselves to feeling superior to anyone who does not share their belief in this
entity with personality.
Theists pray; they fold their hands and talk to god, an exercise that would be pointless if they didn't think that there was someone listening to their prayers. They fear the judgment of their god, believing that they will be held accountable for their actions in some afterlife.
I do not pray, though sometimes I meditate. I do not focus on an imagined deity. On the contrary, I seek to momentarily escape the experience of the entity that is "me".
I do not fear the judgment of some creator, but I am aware that every action I do is in itself a kind of judgment. It's like the saying goes: You will not be punished
for your anger; you will be punished
by your anger.
The thing about the core issues of religion is that the moment you try to create absolutes to express them, they become void of the content you seek to endow your absolutes with, which is why theism fails.