An Old Friend

I want to get some advice from the religious community, I have a friend who has betrayed me maliciously and don't know if he should be forgiven or forgotten.

About 17 years ago someone new moved into the house across the street, people were always moving in and out of the worn house with it's poorly kept yard; this time someone my own age took residence. After a year he moved into the house next door where his grandparents lived while his mom went on with her life, over the next years he was pawned off between the two along with his half sister. During the time we were in contact a lasting friendship grew and by highschool we were able to keep in touch regardless of where he was living. Needless to say we had a dramatic affect on one another each with our share of shortcomings requiring forgiveness or understanding. Once out of highschool we were running with the same crowd when **** hit the fan, drama over took everyone involved and it was some time before we could forgive one another.

After a few more years I found myself in a terrible life situation which left me essentially debilitated. In these days where everyone had kicked me while I was down he was the only one who came around, every few months he would show up and we'd drink and watch movies until one faitfull week my parents went on vacation and he came at me with ill intentions. He brought over audio equipment to hook to my computers which were my only source of entertainment and this time he brought some marijuana. We started with our video games and movies like usual only this time something was different, slowly he started coming onto me and became sexual, eventually trying to convince me to have sex... After a week of his passes and telling me he had sex with my mother I began to fear sleep and did nothing but drink and smoke even more until he finally found a ride to leave; at which point I collapsed in tears. I later found out someone had given him a web cam and offered money if he could have sex with me on camera. Needless to say this has caused me severe mental trauma esp when you take into consideration the previous time he came over I burst into tears on the front porch and confessed the only reason I hadn't killed myself was because of my sister.

Now that I find myself recovering from years of pain and beginning to realize that my life will continue due to an upcoming surgery I have to wonder if he deserves forgiveness. My entire life we've done things to hurt eachother, mine were intentional such as always picking the team on battle masters (a board game) which I knew would win every time, or unintentional like takeing off for the fields in my dirt bike. In turn he did things such as stealing my cd's or useing me as a bartering tool with his friends. I've forgiven him througout our friendship and he would profess his forgiveness yet always held everything against me. I don't know what to think, I know who he is on the inside and what his life has been like, I don't think I could have done any better given the situation. Over time all the things life had taken from him and given to me left him cruel and hateful, at this point in life his honest intentions are simply more then an afterthought and an excuse to be an individual filled with hate and deceit. If I had the power, do you think he would deserve the chance never given or is it to late to change his ways and is doomed to hell?