Poems of Darkness and pain/disdain

White Linen
by: KW

She hears my silent cries
My hidden fears
And without judgment
She listens to my lamentations.
As my story unfolds
She accepts every word, every thought
With her white linen pages
Open wide
Anticipating tears of dark pigment to flow
Etching the images
Of rents and abrasions
As I am etched
By shards of betrayal
Past and new.
And with each intimate passage
Respectful silence assures me
Of her unspoken promise
That my trust in her
Will be honored
And I can close each entry
Knowing
I am not alone.

Eyes of Brown
by: Beckie Anthony

Eyes of brown so lonely and sad,
why do you cry?
I look at you and see a girl who has everything,
a life of many opportunities.

Eyes of brown,
what is it that you're hiding so deep inside?
A heart of gold, now a gray cold stone.
A soul once filled with so much hope, now rotting away.
Emptiness now fills your body and mind.

Eyes of brown,
why is that you carry so much pain around?
The world can take care of itself and not everything is your fault.

Eyes of brown,
Who is that girl you see in the mirror?
A gaunt little girl, with lifeless eyes, and an empty soul who is lost.

Eyes of brown so lonely and sad,
why do you cry?
I stare at the girl for sometime more,
and I realize it's my brown eyes staring back at me.

My Songs

I played a piano that was borrowed
From one who set it aside;
I played of hearts that sorrowed,
Of those who loved and died.

No one noted my playing
No one would lend an ear,
I played what all had be saying
And I played those tunes with tears.

Then one day the tunes were gone
My piano had disappeared I cried;
I couldn't figure out where I went wrong-
Then I discovered my hands had died.

They want to hear my songs I'm told
But now my hands are stilled,
Yet inside my heart is singing
And I guess it always will.

by Seán


EMOTIONAL TAPESTRY

A tapestry of emotions
is weaving through my mind
a banner of colors
needing to unwind
The dark red of anger
leaves its path of hate
intertwinning with depression
not a pleasant personality trait
The blues of hurt and fear
silently seem into the rest
causing an emotional pattern
not really quite the best
The deeper silent colors
of guilt, shame and broken pride
appears in the art
while trying really to hide
Through the years of pain
the tapestry has grown
to an overwhelming complex picture
still not all of it is known
For the front of the quilt
is what we see
and what it shows
is not really me
Under the colors
you should know
is a little child
wanting to grow
One who really wants
to learn to trust again
and not hide behind a smile
and play - "Let's pretend"
But a girl who wants
to just be free
from all that plagues and binds
to just be me
One who can laugh
and laughter is near
one who can jump
and play without fear
The colors of my life
have woven my fate
without thoughts of the girl
trapped within the gate
From inside I cry
"let her free"
but the tapestry is there
and the emotions won't let her be
Unwind; unwravel
unwind you art
you evil warden
from me depart
Leave the child
with in me to grow
for beauty once again
may she know.

Cindy Lou

This one is painful, but imbued with HOPE
Fallen
Written by DarkSylph

My wings are tattered,
Bloody and torn,
Dying, falling, I slowly crawl.
My life is forfeited,
No longer mine by right.
I lost it when I took my flight.

I soared for a moment into the sky,
My wings thrilled with feeling.
A flurry of feathers,
I danced and I sang
Now all I feel is loss
And it's murderous pang.

Now I crawl in the dirt,
Blood in my mouth.
Stare up at the moonlight
Far in the distant skies.
Bliss was short-lived, as I soon found.
You condemned my heart,
I was flung to the ground.

My wings may be destroyed and dull,
I am cold but not completely numb.
My heart is not dead
And my spirit is strong.
I know these feelings
Within my breast are not wrong.
Crush my body,
Do you think I care?
I'll drag myself to the heavens somehow.

I will find a way to save my soul,
Save my dying light.
I will dance once again,
My whole being will ignite.
Don't think I can be shattered
Quite so easily.
My heart is strong,
As you shall come to see.

Meet Your Mistress
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Say goodbye to your sunshine
You'll be seeing it no more
As I rip your criminal head off.
I'll let you decide which one.
I'll hurt you worse than a woman in red
I'll twist your mind and scar your body.
I'll destroy your soul.
You plead for me to stop and I'll laugh.
I'll laugh because I'm out to ruin you.
I'm out for vengance, ****.
You won't die unless I allow it.
You will slowly go insane.
This is just the beginning, my pet.
Meet your mistress, death's mistress.
I'll keep you alive on the brink of death
You are feeling what you caused me
You are hurting as I hurt once.
You are losing what you took from me.
I'm stripping you of your dignity,
of your nobility.
You are no better than a dog.
You have lost your identity
You have lost your heart
You have lost your will to live.
And still I torture you, bring you pain.
I am the bringer of pain.
You think you know pain, you haven't felt but a tickle.
I draw your blood, I bathe in it.
And still you live on.

--Wolftears

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