Piffka
Thanks for your concern.
The fire was about four miles from me. I have a single daughter who loves music and sometimes goes to clubs. I had had dinner with her on the night of the fire (Thursday) and dropped her off at her apartment at 8:15pm. It didn't occur to me that she might afterwards go out to a club, and, I knew that the band/music was not her kind of music. It was late (11:30pm) and I didn't want to call her so late with my silly worrying.
At 7a.m. however my other daughter woke me with a call me from the airport in New York City. She had seen the news reports. "Is Kelly OK?" she asked me. I started to get nervous. I called Kelly five or six times between 7:10 and 7:45. All I got was the answering machine.
I got more and more worried. I remembered that she DID sometimes go out late on a work night. I remembered that her boyfriend liked a DIFFERENT kind of music than her. She could have gone with him.
Finally she answered the phone. "You can't hear the phone from the bedroom" she explained, and then she was: "In the shower...and you can't hear the phone from there either" ( She was a little irritated at my near-hysteria)
I think I had aged ten years in 35 minutes.
Only nine of the deceased have as yet been identified leaving 87 unidentified. There are two unidentified 'Jane Does' in the hospital in grave condition. There many family members and friends of missing people who are keeping a vigil, meeting with grief counselors, and looking for closure.
I'm not aware of anyone close to me who is directly involved, but, as someone said today, "Rhode Island is too small to have even six degrees of separation. One and a half degees is more like it in this tiny state."
Almost everyone is likely to know a victim or a relative.
I don't know how they will bear their grief.
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For today:
'Aubade'
It's all the same to morning what it dawns on ?-
On the bickering of jackdaws in leafy trees;
On that dandy from the wetlands, the green mallard's
Stylish glissando among reeds; on the moorhen
Whose white petticoat flickers around the boghole;
On the oystercatcher on tiptoe at low tide.
It's all the same to the sun what it rises on ?-
On the windows in houses in Georgian squares;
On bees swarming to blitz suburban gardens;
On young couples yawning in unison before
They do it again; on dew like sweat or tears
On lilies and roses; on your bare shoulders.
But it isn't all the same to us that night-time
Runs out; that we must make do with today's
Happenings, and stoop and somehow glue together
The silly little shards of our lives, so that
Our children can drink water from broken bowls,
Not from cupped hands. It isn't the same at all.
( Nuala Ní Dhomhnaill, transl. fromthe Irish by Michael Longley)
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'Return and No Blame'
Father of mine,
your sunny smile
is a dandelion
as I come once again through the door.
Our fumbled embrace
drives the wind off my shoulder
and your eyes hold a question
you will not put
as I break bread at your table
after the long seasons away from it.
Father, my head is bursting
with the things I've seen
in this strange, big world
but I don't have the words to tell you
nor the boldness to disrupt your gentle daily ways,
so I am quiet while the rashers cook,
nod and grin at any old thing.
?'Oh, the boat was grand,
they took me in at Larne.'
?'And a pity they didn't keep you.
Must have been a gypsy slipped you in
and I in a dead sleep one night.'
Didn't I rob you of your eyes, father,
and her of her smile? No dark blood
but the simple need to lose an uneasy love
drove me down unknown roads
where they spoke in different tongues,
drove me about the planet
till I had of it
and it of me
what we needed of each other.
Yes, father, I will have more tea
and sit here quiet in this room of my childhood
and watch while the flames flicker
the story of our distance on the wall.
(Paula Meehan)
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