@BobbyChatty,
Nobody here is going to be an accessory to that.
Instead, I urge you to get the professional help you obviously need. Suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems. If you are in the United States, here is the link to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline:
https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
If you are outside the United States, just Google
suicide prevention and the name of your country.