Can someone offer some clarity please?

its not tiny!!!! it hurts. you are making it worst, don't give advice if you cannot do it in a productive way, and if you cannot understand why this is hurting me, then do not give advice. your hair is not falling out, you don't have a life threatening disease that causes your hair to fall out, you don't have to subject yourself to rounds of medication, or radiation to where your hair is falling out, so stop!!!

I can't anymore with you guys, this is why gay people kill themselves, because they are misunderstood, this is why the bulk of people commit suicide, because no one takes the time to understand, you guys should be so proud of yourselves. So proud, I asked for clarity and most intelligent people could have said, wow she is mean, its ok, there are mean just do not pay them any mind, but you all chose to just sit there and tear me down because I care, about a person who has been giving confidence and strength over the past five year. I just can't anymore. I just can't. The simplest things in the world people can do to make someone smile, or happy, they rather complicate things and be jerks. I hope you all have a great life.

if you cannot understand the issue, just stop commenting it is tearing me down, I ask for one simple thing and I cannot get it.

I am borderline suicidal, crying my eyes out, no one to talk to over the weekend to help, calling a suicide hotline is for emergencies, they will not listen to your issues otherwise, just stop commenting, if you cannot understand me. My issue went from wanting to understand why someone was so rude, to now being made to seem like the crazy person by people who are superficial and have no depth therefore brush everything off like its nothing, and do not take the time to consider how another person might be affected. the downfall of humanity as we speak.

I think we misunderstood how complicated this is for you. can you reach your therapist on Sunday or Monday. None of the members are doctors or therapists, but we all want you to be happy. So, please,please,please call your doc and tell them this an emergency. And it is an emergency, because its important for you.It might help your doc if you printed out our comments so he or she can tell you where we went wrong because we didn't fully understand. all the best of luck and happiness to you.

Then contact your therapist. As has been suggested, more than once.

I am sorry this is so huge for you. BTW, you'd be surprised who's a cancer survivor here, or has MS or Lyme Disease or any other issues. Step back and contact your therapist. If you are feeling suicidal, or think you might be, if you are this stressed then call your therapist and make an appointment and go and talk about this.

You need a doctor's care. As I told you in PM, I hope you get the help you need.

I really do. Make an appointment just like you would make an appointment to get a bone set or a tooth filled or any other reason you would call for medical care.

BTW, you can contact most therapists over the weekend. At the very least, you should be able to get the answering service so that your therapist will know there's an issue and you can both get started first thing tomorrow morning.

It is going to be okay but this is beyond the Internet's skill to solve these issues.

Go and be well.