'This is enlightenment. And we all have it.'
Yet too often we forget.
'I am seeing my true nature.'
This confuses me, as has, for a long period of my life, meditation. We're all part of the same thing, I can understand that. Each time the universe is brought up and somebody wants to travel beyond the edges, you point out that you remain part of it, it's like a fish trying to get out of the water. Or better yet, a fish from the deep rising to the surface, the lack of 'pressure' would 'evaporate' us. I understand those analogies and like them.
Yet for meditation, I needed something else. I recently came across the following explanation:
It seems obvious by now that the immediately observable universe is a
shapeless vast of ice and rock which itself doesn't offer a single
clue about any meaning to our lives. in fact the more we know about it
the more meaningless and unimportant we seem, and I think that fact is
the clue itself. We are looking for meaning in the physical world and
we are rewarded by the exact opposite.
My guess is that maybe this indicates that we have to look for meaning
and dimension in depths of our brains through meditation or focus.
It's probably something people have to find on their own because
anything anyone ever discovered and tried to relate to other people
would be lost in the personal interpretation and some of the things we
discover will probably be indescribable with words we have developed
in the material world. Therefor I don't think you could ever have a
pure religion beyond one person. Lots of crazy things happen in our
dreams that defy earthly experiences and make no sense except when we
dream, and I think that's an amazing thing in this otherwise
predictable and uniform world.
Modern living in a capitalist society is almost completely based
around practicality and material concern, or uniform religions
practices, or stimulating ourselves with entertainment, so I have no
doubt that we probably can think and experience in ways with our
brains that we have never had cause to discover or practice which
could reveal clues to meaning of life.
Which I liked. And although meditation, drugs and death might be the three most common paths to enlightenment, I've liked discussing here and I feel it has helped my quite a bit on my 'way' (get it, path, 'do', no? Ah forget it)
The reason for my reduced activity (I study in Belgium by the way) will be mind numbingly boring routine which, let me put it bluntly will incapicate (Oh god, is it starting already. Is this NOT a word?) me to use the english language as it should be used. I do not have the luxury of university professors, I have english teachers who fail to match my linguistic skills on far too many occasions. Therefor, my ability to express myself will diminish together with the depth of my thoughts.
I'm still in high school in case you wondered. I'd hate to compare myself to Einstein, but just like him I've repeated a grade because I lacked intellectual stimulation. I can't afford spending time here. Well, perhaps on weekends

Because, I really DO want to, but I just can't risk 'wasting' my time on 'useless' activities which serve no 'function' in 'society'. The concepts repel me too often. Or at least they did in the past.
I'll change, I am changed, I will change. I am change.