@chai2,
Hi Friend,
Drive by a Baptist, Methodist, or Presbyterian church and get the hours of next Sunday's Services. Then time yourself driving home. Next Sunday, just pop yourself in the car, wearing jeans or a dress, and head for that church for either the early service or one later, giving yourself an extra 10 minutes.
At the door you'll be greeted just as if you are a human! How refreshing! No preconceived notions about who you are, how much education, money, friends, religion etc. you have.
There, you'll most likely be handed a little pamphlet. That's the order of today's service. It'll tell you the songs, or if the children will be doing a skit today, or if some of God's extra talented people are going to sing for the congregation (i.e., other people in the Church, now including you), and, it'll most likely tell what the Minister will be speaking on today. (He/she is also called the Pastor, Reverend, not the bishop, not most-high etc., rarely the Preacher anymore. You'll find out what he goes by just by observing, or reading the pamphlet.) --Actually, you'll not need to know until time goes by and you are ready to address him, if nothing more than a Thank you, ____ (Reverend etc.) Smith.
At the first and forever Church service you attend, you'll get smiles, nods, and handshakes. You will NOT be called upon to stand up and give your name, etc. etc. to the congregation. You will NOT be embarrassed.
They'll either have a song book in front of you, located on the back of the pew (long bench) ahead of you, or there'll be a screen up on the wall with the words of the song. Sing if you want, don't sing if you don't want.
After the services and as you're leaving, someone might ask your name. You can tell them your whole story, or just your first name and leave it at that. Smile, thank them, shake their hand (firmly shake both men's and women's hands; be gentle if it's an elderly person as they usually have arthritis).
For positive sure, either go back next Sunday and the Sunday after that until YOU have YOUR OWN ideas about God.
Find out the hours of the next Church above (i.e., if you've gone to a Baptist Church first, try the Methodist second and so on, until you feel you've found home.) --At each Church ask for a written copy of what they believe in. Whichever is closest to your mind-set will be the perfect Church for you! (Skip the Latter Day Saints (Mormons). Thought to be a cult and scary to get caught up in.)
Whatever you do, do not go by just what these other repliers are telling you -- stay out of Church, do your own thing, worship without a Church, etc., etc.
Why? I'll let you in on a little Secret. (And for proof, you can find the following "Secret" in your Bible -- New International Version is by FAR the easiest to read and understand!)
The Secret: -----God, Himself, goes into certain people's hearts and starts them questioning, EXACTLY as you are doing! He does NOT do this for everybody. Everybody is more than welcome to come to God, but, my friend, He, God, has been in your heart. He has chosen YOU. Don't be foolish and lose that. Again, it doesn't happen to everybody.
May God Bless you forevermore!
