@bellamente,
It is never too late to seek the LORD Jesus Christ.
I believe to live a life acceptable to the LORD Jesus Christ you must fear the LORD Jesus Christ in all that you do. Research to lessen the stress, any stress you may have about doing as mentioned.
The LORD is an accepting love no matter the words you come across, hear, or read. He never turns his back on those who truly seek him with their heart. Accept him into your heart and as your savior. The LORD is love. A love never ending. Unconditional love.
I want you to understand.