@kmkween909,
Well you just described my relationship with my ex, just different drug of choice. We were together from 14 to 20... He kept saying he would choose me and not the drugs but the drugs always won... I woke up one day and said as much as I love you, I need to love myself and I deserve better. I left and never went back... He found another woman, got married, blah blah... They are now getting divorced because he cheated on her and continues to do drugs... He bounces from jobs, still doesn't have a liscense, car, etc. It's been 7 years...
seems like I made the right choice.. but it was the hardest choice of my life...
You need to do what is right for you, not for him... It will be hard but it gets easier with time.
Good luck <3