@aidan,
aidan wrote:
It's funny that you ask this now because I just had a sort of typical 'prayer conversation' with God for the first time in a long time the other day. I do believe in something outside of myself, and I am cognizant and communicating with it all the time - when I meet lovely people, see babies, experience something with another human that binds us together either in sadness or joy, view the wonders of nature, etc, etc. and the reason I believe it's outside of myself and not only within myself is because I believe it's available to everyone who wants to access it and not just me.
But I don't necessarily believe (because I don't KNOW) and don't need to believe that it's an actual being or entity of any sort. I just believe it's THE ideal. Not AN ideal - THE ideal and it represents (if not embodies) what works for people in THIS world. You know- what brings them happiness and peace, etc. And though a lot of people would probably see that as being very individual to each person, at the bottom of that there's one specific, communal need that we all share and that's love. So if we're able to be loving and feel loved, no matter what other circumstances swirl around us- that brings us some measure of peace in our lives.
In my mind God is simply that - love. So love is God. And if you're a Christian, Jesus is your example of how to spread that love.
So the other day, I was really struggling with what to do about a friend of mine who I do really love, but who I've decided I can't really help- or at least that my help is not working and in fact may be enabling, which I don't want to do.
I've been really anxious, asking myself, 'Is this the right thing to do, is this the wrong thing...' to the point that my stomach was in knots. I hate that feeling. So I just prayed and actually said, 'God, help me find the strength to do the right thing.' Because I thought the right thing was to leave him to his own devices and not support him in what he was doing, but I found it very hard to do that.
You know what - almost immediately I felt at peace with my decision to do that. I mean it was noticable - I felt so much more at peace with my decision of backing away- no guilt at all- and a certainty that it was the right thing to do which hadn't been the minute before.
Maybe it was just me accessing that best and strongest part of myself, which I call God - which is also in everyone else. But it makes a difference in my life, for sure. And it's the best and strongest part of myself- because it's what keeps me out of trouble.
And maybe it's just because I'm inculcated in the Christian religion, but I can always find peace in the teachings and my thoughts around God.
And even if it's only a placebo - it's still a wonderful placebo to have - that access to peace.
Hmm, aid. You know I normally have a lot of time for your opinion but I can't really accept this one for various reasons.
Quote:... and the reason I believe it's outside of myself and not only within myself is because I believe it's available to everyone who wants to access it and not just me.
It may be outside of yourself, but it's still inside others, inside humanity, and consequential of our linguistic and emotional capacities. There's no need to extrapolate the view into something outside humanity.
Quote:And even if it's only a placebo - it's still a wonderful placebo to have - that access to peace.
Well, yes I would say it is a placebo, and yes, a wonderful wonderful placebo for many people with very real emotions and very real consequences. But I can't bring myself to just believe something just because it makes me feel nice/better/stronger/happier.
Quote:Maybe it was just me accessing that best and strongest part of myself, which I call God - which is also in everyone else. But it makes a difference in my life, for sure. And it's the best and strongest part of myself- because it's what keeps me out of trouble.
And maybe it's just because I'm inculcated in the Christian religion, but I can always find peace in the teachings and my thoughts around God.
I like this.
I think a lot of christians presume that non-believers have never had any sort of feelings or thoughts of this regard.