@Roberta,
Thanku all for your thoughts and wishes...
Hey Boida
As yet, still itching - I have to wait for the consultant to write to my GP before I can get the prescriptions - such is the health care system here. I have private health care... for a few more days/weeks.... until the day my divorce comes through - which should be right around Christmas! The papers are with the courts now. Then I lose my private healthcare - or I pay £90 per month with a £500 excess - which will be used in one fail swoop for my surgery in Feb. Realistically, I need to continue with my private health care because of my medical bruhahahaha stuff - so the financial straps will be tightened further as a single parent.
I also learned my salary will be cut to half as, cumulatively, I will have been off work for longer than 6 months in one 12 month period - the straps are going to be severely tightened.
Of course, we will be fine - we can manage. I am luckier than most, I shouldn't complain. I would still rather be in this position financially than to have remained in my marriage, gilded cage and having it all - and feeling nothing, fearing much. It's the one thing I am absolutely certain of. My life is now filled with my decisions and no-one elses. Freedom makes one very rich - albeit with few pennies to rub together at times - it is a good choice.
To be honest - I am completely exhausted. At times I'm not sure how to get thru the days. I have to sleep most every afternoon. I see my hands and feet and think my body is that of a 90 year old - the rest looks completely normal. I am happy to say I have many, many laughter lines on my face - HA - that is a good thing. Energy is just severely lacking.
It tires me even to think of having more surgery - tho this will not be anything like the last 3 foot surgeries. It's not so much the surgery - I can do that - I am on my 12th... actually, I think I've lost count - it's all the stuff that goes with surgery with the little fella being taken care of, relying on people (ack) and not being able to drive for 6 weeks - in a tiny rural community - that is the hardest thing.
Gosh..... I am prolly answering your post at the wrong time - I truly am exhausted today so not feeling particularly sparky. In a few hours I will have perked up no doubt.
I have a day off tomorrow. I must go and try and do some Christmas shopping bits and pieces. As yet - it's not done - in fact, it's not even started. I'm running out of days - if only .......... if only someone could wrap me up some energy and send it to me? Ha - that would be a great present - I need nothing else. A real hug - that would be nice too.
S'no good... gotta go and feed fodder to the child - he has energy enough for both of us.
Oh.. gotta go back to the dermatologist on 30 Dec about my pretty looking mole. He's planned time to remove it there and then if it needs to be - not worried about that at all - hopefully, he will just decide it is real pretty and doesn't need anything done. We'll see.
