Ok, ok, ok what weird web life weaves! Been to counseling, Mmmm how do I feel not sure but have had 3 whiskey's! There I and my son sat among many different people with children. I sat and thought "What am I doing here? I shouldn't be here!" But was ok, we all went off to our different rooms, F with the secondary kids, me with 4 other parents.
We sat and talked, I didn't cry, held it together, felt like it wasn't me sitting in this chair talking to strangers. There were 3 people (including me) who had lost a partner in rather similar circumstances to me, a Mother who had lost a daughter and a grand mother who had lost a granddaughter. Each person spoke of how they dealt with things............ok am lost in thought now! MMmm not sure I can write anymore..............think I need another drink!
My son seemed fine with his group they played a game and made name badges, they had to colour round their name, if they had lost a Father colour in blue, Mother in pink or sibling in Orange. He liked doing this and is happy to go again. Good for him, he needs to meet others!
Ok can not write anymore need to stop, I just needed to write a bit about this evening X