So..today was my first real day back on my schedule.
I worked on friday.. but it was just.. a re-schedule to help this family stay on a some what regular schedule with me because there are 4 kids, 2 adults and 3 pets in that house.
Lordddy mercy.
Any-who.
Im driving down the street and about to pull into the Beans day care and it crosses my mind that if I want to attempt to keep a 3 week 'quitting time' , or schedule adjustment, or what EVER works best at that time, I had better start talking to these people I work for.
Icant just NOT show up anymore..
So I get Bean into her day care, get her lunch in the fridge, get my hugs and kisses from her and a few other kids who seem to gravitate to me like an icing covered cookie and I hop back in the car working out what and how to say what I need to say.
Down Lamar im so far into thought I did not realize I was driving 30 in a 45
hehehe
Anyway.. I have a good script in my head and I am heading to someone whom I love to talk to anyway..
Pull up, get my gear out , drop my keys in my purse and feel my stomach just fall with the loss of stress over working like this anymore.
I really felt GOOD just standing there knowing that I could trade this work in for something that makes me happy, and something that I can earn three times as much if not more at.
Walk up to her door... knock... she opens it.. and I just melt.
I forget my script. I forget my comfort. I forget my concentration.. I just forget it all and walk right in.
The very thought that I would not see her again bothered me.
And then I realized that there is not a person, a family, or a couple that I work for that I dont truly love.
I have been working with these same people for almost 3 years.
Only one person has stopped working with me and it was not due to me.. it was due to their own job loss. Yet.. I still see her ..
Saying goodbye.. ? To all these people?
wow.. thats gonna be hard.