I live a tough life. Some people say im a tough person for the shit i go through and how well i can handle and manage it. But, they dont see whats going on inside. They just see the outside, a pretty, young, peppy, and happy girl with a bright future. That "peppy and happy" thing they see, is a front. That smile and the laughter people see and hear, is a cover up. Im dying on the inside, with no way to get out, trapped in a bottomless pit, falling, falling, falling into the darkness, but i dont know when ill hit the bottom. I could hit the bottom right now, tomorrow, next week, 2 months from now, or even 2 years from now, ill never know until it happens...nobody does. I live a lie that has been created for me by the evil people and things around me. I am an image of what society wants me to be or what they think i should be. Im trapped in the darkness with no light. Im in an endless tunnel that is an image of hell, demons crawling on the walls and on the ceilings, death all around me, and blazing fire wanting to burn me. Im not what you think, so dont assume. I may seem happy on the outside, but im fucked up on the inside. I am Justyce, an image of what others have created, not what i want to be, with no way out.
Tue 1 Nov, 2011 08:04 am - I feel as if the world is closing and collapsing around me slowly, but i can still feel it. I dont understand anything anymore. I dont really know what to think about anything anymore. It seems as... (view)
Sun 9 Oct, 2011 06:24 pm - Everybody expects something from me. I can never get a break. ITs always something, either my mom, my grandparents, or my boyfriend..its always SOMETHING. My mom is on vacation in oregon..and... (view)
Fri 7 Oct, 2011 03:17 pm - I just feel like everybody is against me. I try and talk to people but nobody is there to listen. My mom just randomly went to Oregon and just fucking ditched me and im one of those kids whose mom... (view)
Tue 4 Oct, 2011 12:57 pm - Thank you very much for your adivce and suggestions. I just am really looking for somebody to talk to. Like you said about my father, ive tried and tried and tried again and again but he doesnt... (view)
Sun 2 Oct, 2011 08:05 pm - Im a 16 year old girl living in indiana under the "care" of my mother. I dont have a dad, my parents divorced when i was a baby and he doesnt talk to me. My mom thinks its okay to ignore... (view)