Yes and no.
I didnt go to school to be a momma , but damn sure wish I could have.
I studied geriatric nursing and DID go directly to work an hour after graduation.
Worked many odd jobs during my time in school. Everything from motel clerk to autoglass installer. At one point in time I had almost considered chaging my vocation to auto mechanics.. Something about working on a vehicle really flipped my lid.
So , instead of sacrificing a financially rewarding career, by going to a technical college to study the inner workings of the grease machines we drive, I took some small introduction classes to mechanics and work on my own vehicles.
Still get the power trip I enjoyed , when I talk to people about the things I have done to my vehicles, and have that sense of security that is uneplainable when my car makes a noise.. yet, I can still cruise around town in my 'lab coat' and scope, puffing up with more pride then I can handle , knowing Im nurse.
Next to parenthood, nothing in the working world that I have ever tried , filled me with such a sense of belonging and strength.
Here I am in my life now, looking at my "safe" thinking about the things that are in there..
1 child who is now excited to get to know me now that she knows she was adopted..
Another child growing at my feet
A husband that is worth more then gold
A career that has brought me some of the dearest friends I could ever ask for and has given me the opportunity to learn how to love random people completely.
A tattered homeless past that gave me a real base for life strength.
and then of course, A2K wich has given me a bit of sanity......... just a bit..
now.. back to my padded room.