Dear edgarblythe, Holly sounds like she was a real sweetheart. I can only imagine how happy she was with someone as warm and sensitive as you. Here is a place where you can post your writings so others can benefit from your gift of expression, when you feel up to it.
The little ones we care for are supposed to outlive us, it seems to me, not the other way around.
But, I know that my puppy's last two years were filled with love, tenderness, respect, interesting activities. The night before he died, while he was fussing, I picked him up and held him to my chest. He usually did not prefer to be held, but this time, after some initial struggling, he did put his little head on my shoulder and relax. I feel that this was our good-bye and will always remember it that way, his little body moving up and down with my breathing, his puppy smell and warmth.
Thank you all for seeing me through this first day without him.