Please Help me out from this :(

Hello everyone ...i'm really in a big dilemma . my gf broke up with me as she told me she dont want to be in relatioship . we know each other from 3 years and we were in relationship of 11 months . we broke up 3 months ago . In starting i tried to convinced her also begged her that i love her from my soul . My life was hell . But later i tried to accept that she is no more in my life . I asked her for a friendship and also tried to being her friend but after 10 days i got several mood swings and wrote a letter to her that i cant behave like ur friend as i love her so much more than me . And after that i didn't messaged her since last 35 days . But the good news is i am acting maturely , i didn't blocked her on whatsapp neither she is . Yesterday she updated her status that " Should i smile coz u r my friend or cry coz that's all we'll ever be ?? " guys i'm in a big dilemma .plz help whats that mean can be ?? as she broke up with me , it seems kinda illogical coz she broke my heart and she is behaving like i broke her heart . i will be very thankful to u plz give some advice .