@Frank Apisa,
Quote:But the important part is: Catholicism was a source of great comfort at times…and was a trial at other times.
So you dumped the trial bit in one sweet, easy breath, and, if the theologians are correct, as they always are, the comfort went with it.
Your posts are a form of self-assurance that you made the right choice but your keen interest in the matter suggests you are not absolutely sure. You have no evidence that you made the right choice and you have no evidence that you didn't. So you're agnostic on the matter.
You haven't got the nerve to assert that there is no God. At the strip show you don't know whether to express your carnality or to control it as Mr Obarmy is reported to have done on a stag night in a pub in England when he attended the wedding of a relation long before he made the splash.
My experience of such types of things, taking them all together, was that one might predict that one will live long enough to get to confession and clean the slate. I was certain to have the chance because a few years earlier I had performed the ritual of 7 consecutive Friday communions in Lent which guarantees getting to confession before passing, obviously, into Heaven as befits someone with a clean slate.
My being particularly healthy is probably the reason I allowed the darknesses of my soul to build up immoderately over considerable periods of time and when I did go to confession I knew the priest had heard it all uncountable numbers of times, and was likely reading the racing form, so it was okay to mumble as it was with the 3 Our Fathers and Three Hail Marys, which was the usual punishment.
The priests were not on the look out for youths like me. They were in favour of impure deeds perpetrated on the young ladies of the parish because they could look forward to an endless series of churchings, baptisms, weddings and funerals as a result of those.
I do believe you have completely missed the point.