@peter jeffrey cobb,
You're presenting the unanswerable for several reasons. You've asked similar questions of the same sort many times before.
Your question is unclear about what the purpose and nature is. How can anyone answer you. It's not a philosphical or religion question in actuality.
It sounds like a cry for help. You know you hear voices and you know you have some serious "wiring" problems. How do we know what is in your head? I can only tell you that it's most often reported by many experts on psychology and psychiatry that voices like you describe are often a result of hallucination.
One thing for sure, is you need to narrow it down to a specific topic. It's not possible to know whether or not you hear 'God's voice' or whatever other experiences you have of your own inner voices.
Knowing that with your A2k history of comments, you've documented your own chemistry/personality issues, perhaps this is something no one here can debate with you. Firstly, because it's too broad-based to be of any use. Secondly, it's wrapped around your own admitted perceptual problems.
One's faith and hearing 'God's voice' is unanswerable. And, when you have been diagnosed with severe psychological issues such as the ones that you have, it makes discussion fairly impossible for others to advise you about other to say a generic, but somewhat useless, "keeping seeking help".