Cost a lot of money to have fun these days. Hope ya have fun t.
Considering I have much fun at the concerts I do go to, it is worth the $10-30 I pay. I don't pay for the music I download so it is only fair to the bands I do like to see them in concert when I can. I want them to continue doing what they do, so I support them by going to see them in concert, rather than paying for their albums. I would say that it is more than a fair trade off for them and me.
I did end up getting bad new from my doctor today, and as the days go on without seeing improvement in my health, the more likely it is that I have some sort of lymphoma. Considering that I don't have a bacterial infection, it is more than likely that I in fact have cancer. Thus, I should probably plan on heading out to good old Bonnaroo considering that this could very well be my last summer of my life. I don't want to jump the gun on accepting the worst, but when all other likely scenarios are exhausted, there is not much good news to be had. Now it is kind of down to a degree--early stage or later stage. I am totally freaked out with this and I face finals and paper writing, but I have this dominant force of what is potentially doom and gloom hanging over my head. Even as a nearly 4.0 student, it is more than one can handle.
Everyone I know has no idea what I am currently experiencing. To anyone that has never experienced what I am, or possibly could, it is easy to say that you do whatever is necessary to keep on living. But when my lab tests came back as negative, I seriously had to start beginning to think about what I was going to do when it is highly probable that I could be diagnosed with cancer. Radiation therapy and chemo are not exactly a pleasant thing to go through with. Its not like I have a wife and kids to think about so its not like I have an obligation to anyone to carry on. But now I have a new reality--the physical pain I am experiencing is so excruciating that I cannot imagine living out my days like this.