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Sat 4 Apr, 2009 01:32 pm
seers sage
i packed a bowl with about .75 of a gram.
sat outside my front door and hit the bowl and held it in for like a full minute.
it was a shock i've never felt before, everything was zeroing in on my mind , it was too much. i knew it instantly.
It was if my perception of reality became the focal point for everything i could sense.
touch,see,hear,feel,taste.. all at once, all racing toward me.
as if my body was in motion. but my min was completely still.
a sensory overload.
Panic, Fear, Anxiety...
then the odd feeling i was in a lucid dream.
i took a shower with the water cold as possible about 5 minutes after i hit it.
my wisdom tooth didnt help the headache that set in moments later.
Suddenly i felt a brief sense of knowing everything. a sense of knowing nothing.
i felt as big as the universe, and minuscule as an ant at the same time.
oddly, the experience was profoundly enlightening.
i think pentacle described something similar, "fractured reality"
@OGIONIK,
a weird side effect. i have very very intense dreams.
and i woke up today and realised what it made me face.
my worst fear is not having control. control over myself to be exact. i know i cant control anything else.
huh.
very enlightening indeed.
here's my salvia story:
as i was exhaling i started to fall over on the couch however in my mind instead of falling i was watching everything in the room collapse into a bag along with me. i closed my eyes and thought. '**** am i in a bag?... No, i'm just on salvia.' then i opened my eyes to see a tv screen on a show where the camera angle was aimed up at people as if from a bag they were holding. I WAS CONVINCED! that i was inside a bag. my minds only way to rationalize this was that everyone's mind is inside of a bag and once you decide what kind of life you want to have you come out of the bag bringing along with you an entire complex universe where every little detail is something you crreated purposely.
next the bag started to shift sideways like it was on a track with a bunch of otherr bags and i was cycling through the bags deciding my new life. all i felt was angst and regret. i wasn't rready to leave the life i was already in. i didn't want to start over. i had just started enjoying THAT life.
i started to come out of it and i was laying on the couch laughing and drooling. i asked my cousin who was sitting for me 'how the **** did i get down here?'
@WeBuiltUsATreeHouse,
p.s. i believe that trip was with club 13's XXX (30x) stuff (could've been the 21x but i don't think so)
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