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Tue 2 Dec, 2008 04:50 am
im currently living with a tweaker..
another addict to kick it with, yay! actually its not that abd except this person is constantly, annoyingly erratic but she claned our house top to bottom, woot woot.
Well short story, she asked me how old i thought she was , i said 34? 35? ...
she got pissed and said 26, i was like, well what did u expect ? you do meth constantly.. she got really quiet, i think me being so candid got to her, usually people sugarcoat or avoid things of that nature..
anyways, why would someone do that to themselves? is it a good high? like coke, euphoric? or just addicting and gives you an energy boost? like caffeine and cigarettes? can anyone enlighten me?
i do not understand, well the only thing ive ever been addicted to is coke, the soda LOL. for real i cant stop drinking it, cigarettes? no problem, weed, can do without it, pills? actually pills are quite good because there is no smell or smoke or anything but i dont do them because i see what people do to themselves, well im actually an alcoholic, yes i have to admit i am quite addicted to liquor (****, i finally have a weakness i have to admit to the world), sucks cuz i cant get drunk without blacking out so im like whee, one jack and coke, for the whole night.. but i choose not to drink often anymore.. i guess its genetic, i dont even like drinking that much.my mom knew and ive never even drank in front of her! she was a hardcore alky back in the day, but im happy to say she completely changed her life, getting off drugs, stopping the escort thing, the drinking, etc..
whats the deal? why do people keep doing it, costing their jobs, peace of mind, money, children even, and respect from other people?
O_o
@OGIONIK,
ill take a gander..
*low self-esteem/self-worth
*boredom
*stupidity
*low willpower
*addictive personality
@OGIONIK,
Ennui. Existential angst. Getting away from the self.
It's why we do most things. There's workaholics, shopaholics, equipment fetishes, collecting, food freaks etc. All obsessions. Sexaholics. Computer nuts.
All those can be dangerous. Control freaks. Clothes. Gambling. Misers. Hand washing. Dusting. Gardening. Being different.
Show this to your friend:
http://www.mappsd.org/Faces%20of%20Meth.htm
I've never done it and I never will. I have a friend who was an addict before I knew her. She lost everything, even her kids because of her addiction. Years after quitting her "meth mouth" was a source of constant embarrassment. She worked and worked and worked and saved and saved and saved just to get her teeth fixed. Then she went to college. Now she is a nurse.
@OGIONIK,
People don't teach their kids what drugs will do to them. My wife worked with juvenile offenders, many of whom were addicted to drugs. The constant refrain from those addicted was, "Why didn't anyone tell me that it would screw up my whole life just by trying it
once?!?!?"
Been there. Done that.
Luckily i still have all of my teeth
@OGIONIK,
onion, I used to know many tweakers. Even helped a few.
It is powerful stuff. way more addictive than cocaine, and much easier to get.
Back when I did not care about much, I tried it. Nasty long legged evil high that REALLY hurt my kidneys.
most folks after a while are just unable to resist the call, and resign themselves to toothless rapid deterioration of the body.
DO NOT let her talk you into doing it...
(and watch your stuff)
What's in Meth. A home concoction from the internet....first google hit.
Quote:Dilute Hydrochloric acid--> This may be purchased
at the hardware store. It's sold as a brick and driveway cleaner.
They call it muriatic acid. Sodium Hydroxide--> This, you probably
already have. It's called "lye" at mostplaces; it's drain cleaner.
Ethyl Ether--> You'll probably have to make this. Don't worry,
it's a breeze. Just go to your local K-mart or Auto parts store,
and get a can of that "STARTING FLUID" it comes in a spray can.
It's used for cold weather starting of gasoline engines."VICKS" nasal
inhalers-->USE ONLY VICKS!! No other kind will work that I know of.
These are at any drug store or grocery, etc.. You need 12 of em,
butdon't buy em' by the dozen, unless its winter time, then you can
just say yer from some nursing home, and you're stockin up for the patients.
Otherwise buyem' 2 at a time, if possible. Get a friend to help you.
The druggists at the drug store usually will know what's goin on
if you buy quantity.
@OGIONIK,
Speaking from personal experience, you'd better be real careful. Living with a meth user is bad, bad news; b/c they get way out of control way too fast.
As the above poster said, expect your stuff to start disappearing pretty soon.
Cycloptichorn
I've done meth in the past...the way past, like the late 60's. It was cleaner then as were all recreational drugs. It was a filthy nasty Satan in powder form then and I only tried it a couple of times. I can only imagine what it must do to you now. My daughter has a friend who's a meth head. she's 19 and looks 35.
@Bi-Polar Bear,
i tried it, i didnt smoke it coudltn do it, did a line 1/4 the size of an" average" line.
most disgusting thing ive ever done in my life, all i did was feel cold and erratic for like 10 minutes, then i felt semi-focused for an hour, and i tossed and turned all night, obviously..
yeah, i dont think ill be doing that again anytime , ever.when i think back to the taste and feeling it makes me want to puke.
i cant believe people do that constantly. utterly ******* gross..
it didnt veen feel "good", coke has a very intense pleasureable feeling, meth felt like, if i did any more id want more and more and more, and i was thinking to myself, why? im guessing in higher doses the pleasureable feelings might be more acute, but by the little amount did i can tell the addictive properties are way more intense than the pleasure.
meh. hope they legalize weed soon.
ok so i am an addict. i did meth for ten years. i have been clean for 5 now and it is the hardest thing to do. I wake up everyday thinking about it. i go to bed everynight thinking about it. i used to smoke it. the best feeling in the world. i have all of my teeth and i do not look 10 years older than what i really am. when i went into rehab the doc looked at me and said " i am surprised you are still alive, for the amount that you have done and for as long as you have done it you should be dead. " that was just scary. i lost my daughter because of it. she was taken away from me on a day that i was sooo f**ked up that i didnt even know what was going on. i got my step sister hooked on it and now i have to live everyday knowing that she is out there still doing it. there are a lot of people out there that think they know what it is and what it does. there are also a lot of people out there that have tried it a few times and think they know what it is. but when you have done it for 10 years and have sold it, made, smoked it; unless your whole life revolved around it, you have no idea what it is like to be an addict. to know that you have royaly f**ked your life up. all those people who have asked "why would anyone do that crap, i would never bring myself that low" dont even go there!!! you do not know what it is like to know that you have this addiction that you think you can never break away from. you do not know what it is like to know that you are not hurting yourself, you are hurting the loved ones that are trying to help you get better. so the next time you run into an addict, dont say youre gross, or give them a dirty look. ask them if they need something to drink or something to eat. ask them if they want to talk. ask them if they need help. sometimes all it takes to get someone to go and get clean is someone else to sit down and talk to them.
@secondchance,
You're a brave person, Chance2! Good luck to you - did you get your kid back, btw?
@High Seas,
Thank you very much. No I have not gotten my daughter back. I do not think I ever will. She knows who I am. She thinks that I am her sister, but its just not the same.
@secondchance,
Chance2 - you're obviously writing in an effort to help others, and I respect that, so I thought you should know that this is the open internet, not some private blog where you can count on confidentiality of sorts. You can't go back and change your posts, but you can go back, rewrite your profile and change your picture any time - it's just that name, location, face, history, are too identifiable in what you posted so far.....
Got to go do some work, back after Christmas, so best wishes to you and your family, and to everybody else here
@High Seas,
I understand where you are coming from but I really do not mind what others know. If someone out there reads my words and takes it to heart, it could help them. So I really do not mind what I say on the open internet. It is my past and no one can use it against me as bad as I use it against my self. Thank you for your concern. Have a great Christmas.
In 1966 I worked part time at a car wash. there was a speed freak named billy who worked there who died one night from what he called shooting Whammy. Thats where you open a vicks inhaler, draw out the whatever the hell it is from the cotton into a syringe and run it up. He was another one in his 20's who looked like he was in his 50's. I've done a shitload of recreational drugs in my life but no thanks on the speed.
@Bi-Polar Bear,
oh god syringes, i cant ever imagine doing **** from a needle...
i smoked heroine twice, but omg, soon as they brought out the needle i was all, later dudes i gotta work i forgot , heh..
actually done correctly and with the necessary precautions using a syringe is the healthier way to do it.... but let me be clear that's not an endorsement or suggestion...
@Bi-Polar Bear,
i can see your point, but if im not needlin it, im not sniffing or smokin it either, when it coems to meth.
omg ive been every drug but weed free for like 7-8-9- months.
this reminds me of the time iw as reading a finance magazine and my supervisor was like, dude u aint old why u readin that ****?
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well, if u can imagine me doing **** old fogies do, and then not doing stuff young fogies do? yeah, anyways..
im all twisted, doing right, when i should be wrongin my ass off...
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