@CaptainCurious,
I can definitely sympathize with you on this because I am experiencing the same desires. Unfortunately, I cannot give you any advice. I swore I was straight throughout my life. I love everything about a woman and everything about having sex with a woman, but occasionally during "dry spells" I would get blowjobs from men. Until recently I would never consider doing anything sexual to a man. Within the last few years my Bi fantasies have evolved to the point where I think about giving another man a blowjob or possibly a 69 with another man. These desires, urges and fantasies are strong, but I have yet to act on them. I have even gotten to the point of setting up meetings through different websites, but I have always chickened out at the last minute. I can easily accept a blowjob from another man, but "returning the favor" is another situation!!! Just remember, we are not alone and we are not the only men in this situation!!!