Bi Curious

Even if someone else has been in a similar situation I think you'd get a more useful response discussing this face-to-face with a real person. If you have any trusted gay friends you might try asking them for advice or even seeking out an open-minded counselor.

I can definitely sympathize with you on this because I am experiencing the same desires. Unfortunately, I cannot give you any advice. I swore I was straight throughout my life. I love everything about a woman and everything about having sex with a woman, but occasionally during "dry spells" I would get blowjobs from men. Until recently I would never consider doing anything sexual to a man. Within the last few years my Bi fantasies have evolved to the point where I think about giving another man a blowjob or possibly a 69 with another man. These desires, urges and fantasies are strong, but I have yet to act on them. I have even gotten to the point of setting up meetings through different websites, but I have always chickened out at the last minute. I can easily accept a blowjob from another man, but "returning the favor" is another situation!!! Just remember, we are not alone and we are not the only men in this situation!!!

Same position! And according to Google it seems pretty common.
I'm not going to say too much on a public forum but always thought I was 100% straight and over the past few years it appears not.
Quite enjoying exploring it on my own privately and thats likely as far as it will ever go. Happy to chat in private about it if you want to message me.
I personally would feel much better sharing some of my own thoughts too.