IM COOKED YALL HELP (i have a crush)

Y'all, I spent like a solid hour writing about what I'm about to explain BUT MY FAT FINGER PRESSED DELETE WHEN I WAS JUST TRYING TO LOOK FOR AN EMOJI 😭🔫
aNYWAYS SIGMAS, LET'S GET STARTEEDDDD

Basically, I developed a crusshhh on this guy who I saw at a church conference sometime this week... but this IS NAWT just some random guy, this is MY BROTHERS FRIEND. I've read too many wattpad books to know THAT GOD BETTER BE BY MY SIDE 😝🙏 But since your gal is a church gal, you know she likes to obey the rules 😘 one of the rules were not to communicate with the opposite sex. YAAALL HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO PULL??? But, since I do have a brother I would talk to him so that his friends had no other choice but to stare at me 😝😝😝 I fear I ate. But to be honest a lot of girls dont really listen to the rules, girls as in this one GIRL (my 'friend' 🫢) who always talk to guys no matter how many times she'll get in trouble (TW: PICK ME ALERT) 😬 SO I've been thru ups and downs with this one friend, let's call her Yellow cuz her teeth are yellow 💗 ATM we're on "good terms" but i just talk to her so i can talk to some guys (which i actually havent done this year **yet**), but she only talks to me to talk to my brother so ig we're even 🙏

BUT GUYS, there's a bit of a slight problem because I'm asian, he's asian, BUT I HEARD HE'S INTO WHITE GIRLS NOOOO 😰😰😰 How can he do that to his own race, like baby I'm right over here 🙈 I'm also a bit more introverted and I heavely depend on my face+body card (THANK YOU MAMA 💗) I've basically gyatt it all in life (jkjk), it's like out of all the weeks my face decides to grow tiny pimples, so maybe they thought i was cute or saw little bubbles of puss of my face (let's hope it's the first one!) the thing is, he's also a bit introverted, but let me tell yall THE OTHER GIRLS ARE NOT. 😭🔫 back to miss yellow teeth, she easily can talk to guys and NGL MY OTHER FRIEND WHO ALSO LIKES THIS GUY, TOLD ME HE MIGHT LIKE YELLOW (heard this from HIS friend) 😔 Uhmm i'm kind of tired so i'll finish this on another day sigmas! If anyone happens to see this, just tell me what you think of the situation so far and give me ideas on how to make him talk to me first bc i cant take a single step near him w/o a drip of pee leaking down my leg (also i've tried looking for his socials and my guy is INVISIBLE).