@Kamochii,
You can't ignore who you are.
At some point you're going to have to open up about yourself or live the rest of your life as a lie and be miserable.
I don't know what country you're in, but in the UK there are support groups like The Gay Switchboard, and most western countries have something similar.
I would google something like LGBT support/counselling etc. in your area.
Check them out first, you don't want to inadvertantly put yourself in the hands of religious nutcases.