FWB

I’ve been sleeping with a guy for a year.. our number one rule was “don’t fall in love each other” and we’ve kept this rule and haven’t broken it.. the other night we were talking on the phone about a hypothetical relationship and he straight up said “it’s been a year of us talking, sleeping together and getting to know each other and we haven’t caught feelings, it would have happened by now if were too, I can’t see myself falling in love or ever breaking the rule with you”

At first I was offended, like wtf? What am I doing that he couldn’t see himself loving me. I felt super unattractive but than I asked myself if I would even date him if we did, he’s my type and our sex is unreal, we have great lust.. but I don’t feel love for him other than a friendship type of love so why the heck did his comment bother me?

It almost makes me want to stop being friends with benefits because I was attracted to the what if maybe? I also feel like I’m more available than he is, we don’t see each other daily but we talk daily, and we have our own little routine and it works for us both but it legit bothered me, and it makes me second guess if maybe I’m the one falling and he’s not so I’m hurt?

I think it’s time I rip the bandaid but damn is it hard! I love having him to talk too on my days off and our amazing sex.. but I know it can’t last forever..