I'm heart broken

When it felt like we were in love, he told me he'd marry me. I was viewing everything with rose tinted glasses. We told eachother we'd have a baby and all be a delightful family and together.

Eventually things went sour. He had less time for me and we didn't do many nice things together, the ''nice'' things we'd do together was sex that he wanted and he could tell I wasn't in to it anymore. I felt used. I'd arrange things for us to do together and often he'd be too busy and when he could come he'd not be able to stay for long. I remember when it felt like love making and not sex. He didn't go out of his way to make me feel special, even during sex.

So I began starting arguments all the time. He even told me I LIKE starting arguments. And that's why he's dumped me. He's ghosting me now. That and he thinks I don't know that he was cheating on me again. Before he left he told me he'd come back one day...🧐

Devastated to say the least that things didn't turn out the way that I fantasized. And I'm so angry and hurt. Grieving a future I never really had.