The neutral consciousness state?

I wrote the below a few years ago to try and put into works how I believed my mind worked or should work. Can anyone relate to it?

CONSCIOUSNESS
Imagine a matchstick man with a round head.
The matchstick man has been FORCED to try and understand how his computer brain operates as his has crashed. He is trying to get back on line.
He divides his head into two.
In both sides of his head he imagines a computer screen/ keyboard/mouse and chair. The term AUTOPILOT appears on both screens.
He notices that both computer terminals are connected together and that there is nobody sitting in either chair operating the computers.
One day he realises for the very first time that he has the CONSCIOUS ability to bring his focus into the moment whenever he likes. He calls this new consciousness state MANUAL. He likes this newfound consciousness state but finds that he can’t sustain it for long periods but constantly slides back into a SUB-CONSCIOUS state that he now recognises as AUTOPILOT.
What strikes him as odd is that the computer screen on the right side of his head now says MANUAL and there is someone sitting at the chair working away. The computer screen on the left side however, still says AUTOPILOT and remains unoccupied.
In the following months he practices bringing himself into the moment more and more, he notices that for some reason both computer screen inscriptions keep alternating between AUTOPILOT and MANUAL. One minute the person working at the computer is on the right and then the next he is on the left. Whichever terminal he is working at only ever has MANUAL appearing on the screen. It looks as if the person is communicating with the other computer.
He wonders what is being communicated. He can’t work it out but knows that he feels conflict within himself and is suffering with anxieties.
With all the practicing, the matchstick man gradually becomes aware that the reason he keeps sliding backwards and forwards from AUTOPILOT to MANUAL is directly related to thoughts. The sliding occurs only when he engages/disengages with them.
He concludes that he will never think again as that will stop the sliding. He knows that this a silly notion however.
What strikes him as really odd is that the unoccupied screen now reads STOP THOUGHTS rather than AUTOPILOT. The person on the other screen is still busily working away, the screen still reads MANUAL. Once again, over time, he notices that the screen instructions and the person sitting at the screen keep swapping places.
He thinks to himself, how on earth can I stop thinking? He then notices himself come back into MANUAL automatically. He didn’t have to put any effort in.
One day he decides to try and test the silly theory. He tries to stop his thoughts. He has recently learnt a technique for staying in touch with himself, he calls this technique putting on his body. He has already mastered this technique. He knows the importance of wearing his body always and that he needs to stay in touch with his five senses.

He meditates daily on staying in touch with his five senses and then as part of this process he then turns his attention to his head.
He becomes more and more persuaded that the backward and forward communications that go on between his left and right computers are directly related to his engaging/disengaging with thoughts.
He learns to stop engaging/disengaging with these thoughts rather he learns to stay STILL and observe /listen instead.
When they both do this, they notice that both computer screens are now reading MANUAL and that both seats are occupied with persons busily working away.
What surprises them most however is that the matchstick man is still able to think in this newly found STILL consciousness state.
He calls this new consciousness state NEUTRAL.