What to do? Crushed by DanceSport people

Hallo,

First thing: Apology for bad English. I have not been practising for quite a while
Second: I have posted several threads here before... Some people mentioned my problem with alcohol... Since then, I quit drinking. Also thanks to you. So thank you...

The problem:

Long story short, about a year ago I started dancing... I love dance, I am sportsman and generally love to move, dance is not just pleasure, but also great way to meet people and socialise with women... which has been proved several times. Little problem is, I am very shy, introvert and perfectionist, so if I am about to show myself, first I must be confident about my skill... which I am almost never . Therefore I almost never leave training halls for some social experience but still, I enjoy it a lot!

I have a huge problem however... A first it was beautiful, I met one absolutely gorgeous women, she gave me a lot of inspiration and I feel motivated by her until today... In many aspects, I want to be like her: great dancer, great fitness body, confident....

The problem is every other person (in that school). Long story short, they push me around, provoke me, make me feel inferior, talk rubbish about me,...both kids AND their trainers... I did absolutely nothing to them, except one thing: I am shy and closed person. I don't talk to people unless I have a reason and they look down to anyone who is socially not as bold as them... and above all, not LIKE them, meaning feminine, trying hard to blend in...

I broke down the problem: After several talks I realised this whole "dance school society" is basically a bunch of teenagers and their sick 20-30 y.o. trainer trying to get laid (with their teenage students...). They are still sportsmen and do dance sport on very high competitive level but socially, this is point of this place.

So like I said, I have horrible, horrible times there... Last training gave me trauma that took 3 days to so-so recover from...

...I have not trained in any other school yet...I am a scared that all schools are like that, but maybe that is just my fear and frustration talking from me...

The reason I am not off that place FOR EVER yet is quite strong: a) they have excellent training halls open 27/7! I do not know any other place where I can come at 10 PM and train till midnight, in the morning or all weekend... that is GREAT. Also, next door I have gym and sauna, so all in one place... very cheap...
b) I have a trainer and dancing partner there... It is extremely hard to find dancing partner and I cannot take her anywhere else... She refuses.


So the question: What should I do... Should I leave the place? I want to dance... this is the best training hall I can find... Maybe there are other options? So far I did not find any...I have dance partner there...took me 10 months to find her... I am trying other dance schools, of course. So far all looked better than this, but I am just scared that eventually they turn up into bunch of horny insecure teenagers, like Hes Dance School...

...and why no other dance partner responds to my replies to their dating ads? There are internet dating sites where you search for dance partners... Ads look like "Hi, I am <name>, my parameters are <age>, <height>, my skill and accomplishments <

>, and I am searching for . I reply to such ad in similar way, like "I am Peter, class E, train for 3-5 times, etc..." and I get no response... ever... Is my hunch right and these ads are actually not meant to find partner for "just" dancing... because I offer only this... Thank you for reading and maybe some response...