Hi there
I hope anyone out there can help me somehow, as I’m quite desperate regarding a situation happened to me few years ago which haven’t shared with anyone Yet (as too painful ).
It’s simply too embarassing and humiliating to tell, so never had the guts to face the truth and get this out my chest.
A few years ago I had an affair with my boss (who is married!,) which lasted for about 1 year or so :’( :’( I was single back at the time.
I had no idea Why i made such a terrible mistake, on something like this and i just feel very very ashamed with myself for what I’ve done.
I understand it’s been a disgusting behavior and way off my believes and morale.
I changed then workplace but this terrible experience has been influencing me a lot ever since and I kind of stopped to be myself when meeting new people
It’s now my ‘new companion’ , my constant thought which I try to keep hidden from my soul but its always been around me . Sometimes it appears as a old memory, which makes me crying and sometimes it just comes to my mind as ‘mistake’ which i am trying to move on.
I live in a small town so people kind of know each other, in that office they still talk about me and I am afraid whoever I meet in my life they will find out my mistake.
I feel a disgusting person who, after such behavior, deserve nothing and has lost her reputation forever
Thanks for reading