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I’ve screwed up and trying to fix it

 
 
Bfifty2
 
Reply Mon 29 Oct, 2018 11:30 pm
To put this in context I have some severe mental problems. Over the last month or so my depression was worse than ever (I’m hopefully going to be doing better soon due to a med change) but during that time I didn’t realize how bad the house had gotten and it got terrible. I also apparently didn’t show any love or affection to my husband and just stayed in bed. What made me realize what’s going on is my husband told me that he doesn’t know if he loves me anymore and told me it seemed that I was just “there but not” then told me I didn’t even take care of myself. Next he told me that he needed time to think and figure out what he wants. This was close to a week ago.
I’m doing better with the cleaning and what not. I’m starting to try to take better care of myself. And I’m doing my best to give him some time to work things out, I’m scared that it’s only going to make it so he thinks I don’t care but I’ve read a lot online and am giving him time.... well trying to.
We have talked about all of these issues the first night and we have just plain talked a few times since and he isn’t sure if he can be happy in this marriage again
To be honest I know this was a preventable situation but here I am. How do I make this situation right or at least better? Is there anything I can do while giving him space to let him know I DO love him? And how can I ever make this up to him?

A part of me is distraught and keeps saying that I ruined this marriage.... but till he hands me papers I’m going to try what I can to make it better.
 
jespah
 
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Reply Tue 30 Oct, 2018 06:43 am
@Bfifty2,
The best thing you can do is insist that he start counseling -- with or without you. I hope you have your own counselor and it seems you have a treatment plan (yay!). But he also needs to unburden himself to an impartial professional. He needs to work with someone who can honestly tell him -- and who he really can't have an argument with about this -- that one of the things depressed people do is, they shut down and they stop doing stuff. It is part and parcel of your symptoms.

Only he can decide if that's okay for him. He needs to get it that a clinically depressed wife means the only person to do the laundry, etc. is him. If that's a deal breaker for him, then it is, and I am sorry. But for him to operate as if depression is not a serious illness, and blame you for the symptomology of your disease is like blaming a cancer patient for their hair falling out.
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