October 25, 2018
You seem like a 'good' person who's in with the WRONG crowd. Whenever you'd like to have a half-way 'normal' life, QUIT ALL DRUGS COLD TURKEY and avoid them like the plague the rest of your life.
Your soulless 'friends' are out to corrupt and destroy you for their profit. Get away from them AT ALL COST. Your death would be preferable for you than what appears to be your current fate worse than death. But don't misunderstand -- suicide is immoral, and you've got too much going for that -- you've been resisting the attempts to corrupt you -- continue with that, but when your mind is clear from drugs you'll get better at resisting rubbish, and you should stop hearing voices.
Move away -- live in a hole in the ground in the woods -- anything but stay on drugs with your lovely 'friends'. And keep your location TOP SECRET once you move. See NO ONE that you know now. Change your clothes, facial and head hair.
Be a virtual 'secret agent' -- you might build on that and become a top flight security guy working 'shoplifting patrol'.
Truth and Love, Luxin