Update on my diet.
I am still fasting almost every day.
One meal a day, I am getting more used to doing it.
I have lost almost 25 lbs.
I think it was easier quitting drinking alcohol and weed than it has been dieting every day.
If I have my one meal too early in the day then late at night my stomach starts to complain and I get "temptations".
Just a tiny ham and cheese sandwich, some cheese and crackers or how about a small glass of fruit juice?
Then I think of living my life alone because I am unwanted and fat and never having washboard abs and I am able to ward off the little voice inside my head providing me with suggestions on what to eat.
Every day I lose weight my attractiveness goes up, my popularity goes up and my friends desire to be around me more. It is a simple fact, no matter how superficial it seems, it is true.
I have perhaps another month of fasting each day with aiming for only one meal and I then will maybe be able to settle into two modest meals per day.
I will never allow myself to get fat again.
I realize I can fit three meals into one meal if I don't listen to my body when it tells me it is full...
I am not intending to insult fat people, I am just saying that people who are healthy and in shape seem to "generally" get more attention. It is a fact of life and I don't plan to let overeating ruin my health and quality of life.
I was fat and somehow I imagined that, that was okay. That was until I would see myself walk by and my reflection in a store window would shatter my imaginary perception of myself.
My face was fat, my stomach was fat and I looked like ****.
I have at least ten more lbs to go.
That is over a month or more perhaps of dieting.
That is 30 lbs overweight.
30lbs!
It is like carrying around a huge bag of potatoes!
If my belly is not gone with losing 10 more lbs then my weight problem was even worse.
I am not out of breath anymore when I go up stairs and walk up hills.
I can now stand to look at myself without my shirt on.
Ten more lbs and I will maybe have a swimsuit body and be able to walk around without a shirt or on the beach (in speedos).
I will not shy away from nearly every Facebook photo op and there will be photos of me online again.
There will be a body to attach to this person that I am happy with.
Losing weight needs one to be psyched out in order to stick to a regimented eating plan...
I think I have accomplished this. I do not fast every day but I try.
I manage to get in about 4 days a week with only one meal and that is how my weight loss plan has progressed. Exercise helps but caloric reduction seems to be by far the greatest means to lose weight.
My body would wear out if i tried to use only exercise to rid myself of this fat.
I am off to bed and I think I have successfully gone another day with only one medium sized meal.
Tomorrow the scale and my bathroom mirror will be kind to me...