So confused but want to know truth help!

I neeed help. I was away from my spouse for two months. I noticed some shadiness and started looking at his google acct n gmail
His maps too wen i bring things to his attention he would erase the
Things id find. I noticed his maps started looking out of wack..then alot of ads in google leading to wierd porn sites. He telling me it in my head and im crazy. Two months ago i found he had a pof profile from five years ago and i thought we were good then so i been hurt. I came back month ago and now im finding made up books on google. One titled i didnt know my husband was gay. I clicked an read the little summary and i swear it was about me. You cant buy the book its not real and it talks about womans life three kids like me but she got nosey and her husband wanting to hide it at all cost even if it make her crazy. Idk it felt like it was some code and im so confused . Is my spouse making these books up..is he into men? Am i losing it?