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Fri 1 Sep, 2017 12:38 am
I'll try to keep this as short and sweet as possible...basically I've identified as straight my entire life (and due to certain different circumstances will always identify as that). I'm 24, been dating my gf for 3 years whom I met in university andI truly love her and want to marry her one day if it makes a difference here...however I've met with 2 guys prior to our relationship, and 2 during (only for oral going my way - all 4 times). Mentally, physically..w.e you want to call it I'm attracted to women. Some women are beautiful, some are sexy, some are cute...you get the point. But I could never say the same about a guy...sure I can say like "thats a good looking dude", or a "not-so-good-looking dude" but I find no physical attraction to men at all. For some reason, the only thing that attracts me gay oral. As mentioned, Ive got a bj from a guy 4 times, and only fantasize about being on the other end - but havent tried that yet. As an aside, all 4 of the guys that I met with, I saw pictures of before hand and "hand-picked" the one I was "attracted" to the most...which idk if it means anything in and of itself. When I masterbate and look at porn, I often find myself attracted to the penis, and end up watching gay porn as a result...but none the less my feelings for women never lessen. After each time of meeting with a guy I said to myself something along the lines of "wow that really wasnt as good as it was supposed to be, im not going to do that again" (and then proceeded to do it 3 more times).
The reason I'm posting here now is because after the 2nd time of "cheating" on my gf I'm really feeling guilty about doing it, and I want to stop but I just cant resist the urges. What do I call myself? I surely can't be gay, or even bi...kissing, touching and anal with a guy is flat out unappealing to me...but yet I fantasize about gay oral all the time...
What is going on in my head? Can someone help me unravel. Thanks
@eagerbeaver2,
Maybe you just like BJs and think you can get a better one from a guy.
@jespah,
"Maybe you just like BJs" yeah...but who doesn't..let's be real?
"and think you can get a better one from a guy." I cant argue this "fact" but how do I proceed this? What do I think of/call myself?
You might call yourself a human being. Radical, I know, and your case, of dubious veracity.
@eagerbeaver2,
@dalehileman,
what?
But Gerb, what what
If there's any way at I might clarify, please advise
@dalehileman,
It was more of a sarcastic what, you must be bored since you scroll these forums looking to correct paragraph structure on the internet. Well done sir. While we're at it I think you meant to say "If there's any way THAT I might clarify, please advise" but whose keep tracking of spelling anyways?
@eagerbeaver2,
Bea, most sincere apolos
Quote:must be bored .... to correct paragraph structure
Alas alack, but thot 'twas bein' helpful
Why thank you, Eag
Quote:meant to say "... way THAT I might...
Oh no not'tall, Erb. In fact w/o "that," 't's more nearly collo
Is your fiance into oral with you? How do you feel about females giving oral to men?
@PUNKEY,
Occasionally yeah...maybe not as much as I'd like her to. What do you mean by how do I feel about it? I like it..I find it attractive, especially when done to me haha
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