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Straight-gay best friends +personality issues

 
 
Reply Wed 12 Jul, 2017 09:19 am
Hello I'm Toni I am out of the closet gay guy who fell in love with his best friend who had Dad issues, sexual abuse by elder boys in neighborhood and school which made him doesn't trust people of the same gender and i notice him trying to avoid body contact with me even in small stuff but always grabs my butt and when i do him the same he feels annoyed and shy as i think he has this idea that real men should be top (giver) he is so addictive to girls and worships pussy but he makes akward things like telling me "I love you" many times but ignore it and take it as friendship love, and other times he grabs our masculin looking mutual friend's ass several times and giggles when he grabs back and he even kissed him on the cheek and jokingly shows off his ass even though he know our friend is gay and tells him that he likes him as a joke but we three know that he would try him out, we 3 are 23 we both act cute and sometimes people see us sort of girly acting men but when real situations come he denies any homo stuff and act homophobic as if he's into boy secretly and loathing himself and feel ashamed of himself as he sees homosexuality as a sin and fear what would people say about him and sometimes he's paranoid that I only like him because i have this lust, evil, and intentions that i want to take advantage of him even though he's known me shared a room a whole damn year ! So he is frightened lying dude when he's sensitive to criticism and acts like teenagers when is mistreated even in work he hates orders and bossy way of talking our co-workers make fun of him when he speaks sometimes because of his soft way of talking or his innocent way to express himself as he sounds like he was born yesterday so he avoids talking mostly so he is so fragile infront of other dudes but punishes the people who love him and acts so bossy when ever takes someone for granted. Btw he's the kinda people that don't see their acts and so quick to judge, insecure, plays hard-to-get a lot and treats me sometimes like his ex girlfriends in certain ways like thrilling me up and surprising me with things about as he likes attention soo much anyways sorry for this too long articled question and thank you for reading btw I'm from Dubai and my name is not even Toni i just happened to live in a land where homosexuality is illegal and most people are homophobic in here so my questions are
1: Does he really have feelings for dudes knowing the fact that admitted being abused and even slept with dudes for a while but provided me no details except that he was a top and thought the other dude was going to rape him?

2: Is he mentally healthy? ( he handled everything sololey since being born)

3:What do i need to do now ? ( I ignore him these days which so hard for him because he's not brave enough to apologies.

4: What about a sudden French kiss ?( if u sure he's into boys)

5: how to get him in the mood to confess everything?



( he insulted me many times but and we had a lot of fights but i always let him win because he's miserable at work and weaker than me and also i love him so much but he takes my situation as a weakness in me ! and plays the victim and is that he's more impact than i am in every fight ) we both are sensitive to eachother between our mutual friends it's like he wants to prove his masculinity over me by making fun of me but I don't care cuz i'm the strongest and i can keep myself calm even if he tried to fight last two fights we had he assaulted me using his fists as he reached the breaking point because we were not talking to each other in work and I ignored every non-direct reference to me so I stopped the fight not hitting him back he was shouting so loud that I thought his lungs will explode all over me the last fight he in work place where he assaulted me loudly in front of others and called me a pussy where i reminded him about his past and mentioned that I myself liked him lustfuly just like others ( i know what i did was wrong and i regret it ) but all what i wanted was getting a rise out of him because he made fun of me taking Anti-depression pills in front of everyone! This is the worst phase of our relationship we were like brothers 5 months ago 😔 anyways he also had positive things he is funny, confident when not around strangers, creative, cute, loving, kind, generous full of interesting information, stylish, gamer, his smile only changes my mood but now he's not all that, we broke up 5 months ago and he moved to live back with his family even though he told that he is so comfy livin with me more than his family wtf is wrong with this dude !!? ☹️
 
jespah
 
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Reply Wed 12 Jul, 2017 09:23 am
@ToniMcDamin,
Why would you want to be with someone who hits you, insults you, has probably some serious unresolved issues from his childhood, doesn't respect your personal space, and teases you with his previous encounters?

If the answer is "'cause he's hot", I will throw something.

But seriously - this guy is a jerk if nothing else.

And please, no sudden french kisses for anyone. Just because this guy won't respect people's bodily autonomy doesn't mean you should start doing the same.
PUNKEY
 
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Reply Wed 12 Jul, 2017 09:42 pm
Why dont you just get a puppy?

Much less work and will never abuse you.
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ToniMcDamin
 
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Reply Fri 14 Jul, 2017 06:02 am
@jespah,
Thank you for responding it means a lot So why do i want him ? Becaue i was already involved in his life for 1 thing + i feel like I shouldn't let him down because i'm aware of everything about him and he told many times that he loves me, and that i am his best friend ( he never had one ) and he's so special in my eyes, also why can't i be the bigger man? I mean if a 5 years old hit you, would you hit him back!? I follow my heart and my brain together I know sometimes I fall to my feelings and I act like if am his mother lol but why not? This is me ! Btw he hit me but it never hurt, and i chose to not hit back because we were in work we could both get fired, other thing is I really felt so proud that for once in my life i was able to control my anger (during a fight) and yeah he is the hottest cute thing I've seen I don't Know anymore if he is that hot or my feelings for him made me blind 😭The bottom line, my friend. He is too innocent to leave him lost in this world. other people would take advantage of him because he's not the strong he's prettending to be, he's easily intimidated and assaulted by others I've seen him many times and damn it made so mad that I can't even defend him cause I decided to cut him for a while but keeping my eyes on him in case something bad happened to him. (I forgot got to tell you that he's the eldest in his wife and his parents were devorsed last time we were together you can almost say his family also has issues especially his violent father who punishes his brother when my when he's not around)
ToniMcDamin
 
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Reply Sat 15 Jul, 2017 12:54 pm
Folks I need help sorry for my poor English but I think it ain't hard for you natives.
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jespah
 
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Reply Sat 15 Jul, 2017 01:13 pm
@ToniMcDamin,
I'm going to respond to this line by line, more or less.

ToniMcDamin wrote:

Thank you for responding it means a lot So why do i want him ? Because i was already involved in his life for 1 thing + i feel like I shouldn't let him down because i'm aware of everything about him and he told many times that he loves me, and that i am his best friend ( he never had one ) and he's so special in my eyes, also why can't i be the bigger man?


You don't owe him anything because of history or time served. He tells you he loves you because it keeps you strung along. Are you paying for his stuff, by chance?

ToniMcDamin wrote:
I mean if a 5 years old hit you, would you hit him back!?


This isn't a five year old. It's a grown man who should know better. Full stop.

ToniMcDamin wrote:
I follow my heart and my brain together I know sometimes I fall to my feelings and I act like if am his mother lol but why not? This is me !


You're not his parent and you are not his white knight. He is not your responsibility.

ToniMcDamin wrote:
Btw he hit me but it never hurt, and i chose to not hit back because we were in work we could both get fired, other thing is I really felt so proud that for once in my life i was able to control my anger (during a fight)...


It doesn't matter if it didn't hurt; it's still a violation of your personal autonomy. It also lays a foundation that you allow him to lay a hand on you whenever he feels like it. If it escalates and becomes painful, he will say you allowed it.

And he would be right, because you do.

ToniMcDamin wrote:
...and yeah he is the hottest cute thing I've seen I don't Know anymore if he is that hot or my feelings for him made me blind 😭The bottom line, my friend.


I knew it. I should've bet the farm on that one.

Looks fade. Acting like an asshole, unfortunately, is eternal.

ToniMcDamin wrote:
He is too innocent to leave him lost in this world. other people would take advantage of him because he's not the strong he's prettending to be, he's easily intimidated and assaulted by others I've seen him many times and damn it made so mad that I can't even defend him cause I decided to cut him for a while but keeping my eyes on him in case something bad happened to him. (I forgot got to tell you that he's the eldest in his wife and his parents were devorsed last time we were together you can almost say his family also has issues especially his violent father who punishes his brother when my when he's not around)


Bullshit. He's a grownup, and he is, until proven otherwise, presumed competent.

He is not your responsibility. He is not your child. He is not your pet. He is not your male version of a damsel in distress. He is not your fixer upper project.

He is a guy with major issues who you find attractive. Full stop.

And he does not have the sense to get professional help because you keep coming to his rescue even when he treats you poorly.

Man up and get some goddamned self-esteem and self-respect, before this poor little lost lamb in the woods breaks your arm in some fit.
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ossobucotemp
 
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Reply Sat 15 Jul, 2017 01:33 pm
I don't mean to be mean, but ToniMcDamin's self esteem is settled at a very martyr like stage.
This bodes no good for the long term.
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