Why he he was like that to me? Not to other girls?

I was in a relationship whit one guy for almost 3 years. We were
living together.

I am young pretty and smart girl which is really easy-going and popular.
My father is Italian, so I have to admit that I am passionate and
loud. I have a lot of guys, which admire me... but I lost my believe,
I am stacked on some point ... where Im still thinking why did that
happened.
Maybe you could help...


My ex was trying really hard to get me, and I was really careful.
It took him at least three months, like to have me...
He made several mistakes which somehow really affected our
relationship.
I mean, he was flirting with my best friend.. He lied to me - that he
is with the friend and instead of it.. was alone trying to go out
with some
married chick.

The biggest problem was the porn. He used to watch it a lot, he was
hiding it - so I had to go through the history... which was kinda
embarrassing..
I would not mind this, but our sexual life was horrible because of it.
I like a lot of sex, I need to have it at least 2 times per day.
And he was making up excuses to not **** me and he was rather watching
porn.

I was open and I wanted to talk about everything. What did I got back?

--->>> broken finger and bruises around my eye..

Even if I tried as much as I could ... it was impossible to make
things as I want them to be...

after some time...
He kicked me out of our apartment, stole my money and was blackmailing
me for more money...

After some time I we got again in touch.. We were spending time
together.. I was mostly paying.. He was treating me nice, but
sometimes I could see that dark side of him ..
I bought the tickets for amsterdam - that we will change the
environment and maybe we will be happy again. It was his birthday.

One day before the trip I received a call that he met some old friend and
he fucked her. And that he is supposed to meet her the next day and
that he is not going.

The girl is ugly and chubby. My body is nice - I was lucky about it, skinny by the nature. My face is the best part of my body. I was a model.
But makes him happier than me? Why?
I dont understand how is possible that she got the first place? and not me?
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?
Why she got the honey and me the bitterness?

We were never going out. Even the old couple living in front of us was having more fun.
Now, with his new girl is different ...
I don't understand..