@Sturgis,
No you're right, I don't know this for certain, and with edgar it may not at all be the case. I should have used "may" rather than "will."
Fear of death and what may or may not come next challenges the beliefs of many dying people though.
I'm not predicting he will
give in. I've really no idea.
He made a comment that he might feel comfort in his old age if he believed and so I invited him to do so, to "give in" and added that if he did, he wouldn't be the first atheist to do so. Probably could have worded it better, but (despite what he believes) my intention was not to criticize his atheism or suggest it is a foolish belief that he will drop like a hot potato when he's near death. I think I've been clear throughout prior posts in this thread that I don't think it is right to denigrate someone's belief in God or in his absence from the Universe. And it certainly wasn't my attempt to
convert edgar, just to suggest to him that the comfort he might find in believing is not a small thing and that it's my opinion and belief that doing so won't dishonor him or make a difference as to what happens when he dies.
There may be believers who deny God on their deathbeds. I don't know of any, but that's not to say they don't exist. If they do, I think it's quite sad, because it must take a great deal of suffering to renounce God, however if they do so out of a moment of perceived clarity that causes them to question everything they've believed, that's perfectly fine and I would even go so far as to say I'd be glad for them. Experiencing such a moment just before you die (regardless of its cause or validity) must be comforting. I would love for everyone to be in comfort when they die. I pray every night that God grant those for whom death is imminent, serenity and comfort. I don't think he's answered my prayers, but it can't hurt to ask.
I'm not a Christian or a member of any specific faith. I've stated this enough times in this forum that it should be clear that when I speak about God, I am speaking about my personal beliefs, but if it's not, there it is now for the record.
I don't believe that whether or not you are a member of
the club of Believers will have any affect on what happens when you die. I don't know what will happen when I die, but if death is the final end of sentience, I'm sure I won't be hanging out in the void cursing myself for being a fool. I genuinely believe in God and that there will be some experience after death. I have notions of what it might be based on my belief in the nature of God, but it's nothing like the Christian concept that involves judgment and punishment or reward based on how you acted on earth or what historical figure you believe is your savior (or for that matter The Prophet).
My father was a lifelong atheist who converted upon recognition of his having an inoperable brain tumor that was, without doubt, going to kill him. I think it was fear not clarity that prompted it, but if it provided him with a measure of comfort and serenity during the days he faced his imminent end, what's wrong with that?
I truly don't care whether someone doesn't believe in the existence of God. My brother doesn't and I love him very much. I don't, in the slightest, feel compelled to convert him to my belief because it will somehow save him. I might at some point in our lives encourage him to believe if he indicates, as edgar did, that it would provide him with comfort, but otherwise why should I care since I don't think the divine creator of all things shares our petty human emotions, and doesn't care if you acknowledge him or not. Most importantly though, my brother respects my belief and while we have discussed the subject on many occasions, he has never resorted to arguments about stupidity and silly superstition.
I don't presume to know the mind of God (that comes when you die) and in this life I don't think anyone possibly can. The beliefs I've expressed here are based on my very limited, human attempts to make some sense of my belief in a divine creator. I'm likely to be way off the mark in any number of way, but I believe "I" will see and that is very exciting.