Is this a good thing to send to my crush?

I would not send it. Anything besides face to face conversation sends a message of weakness, and that is not what you want.

Face to face with her is me making a joke with nothing to follow up. I will accept weakness if it means her getting to know how I feel

Also she is a year younger than me and are in lower parts of high school. I hope I have more than one chance to try

Don't confess feelings.

Just ask something like -

I really enjoy spending time with you. Would you like to get a soda (or coffee, if you prefer) this weekend?

That's your script. Don't just toss out a stream of consciousness like "I like you but I'm not really asking you out because I have no idea if you're in a relationship and I'm terrified of being rejected and ...."

You have been hanging around for four months and building this whole thing up, I am sure. If you aren't clear in your intentions, then your crush will just think, oh, that's nice and things will not have changed one iota.

Please skip this utterly unnecessary step. It's just another way to build things up even more give you more terror and more feelings of awkwardness so that you can wait another four months or more. Plus it gives you a second chance to be rejected.

Get the asking out part out now. Don't hesitate. Seize the day. If your crush in a relationship, then they will tell you. If not, and they are interested, they will be receptive. If they aren't in a relationship, but are still not interested, then I hope they will be kind enough to let you down gently.

No matter what, it will be better than not knowing.

Your note, as it stands (and you're sending it through Instagram, of all places? I hope you realize there's pretty much no privacy there), does not give you the opportunity to either end this mental stalemate or at least get more information.

Make this communication work for you.

If weak and really desperate is how you want to come across, then go right ahead.

Instgram dm and she doesn't have any other form of messaging that I know of

You see her at school. Talk to her in person.

I guess I don't really know why I posted this. I guess i send it like this this is just who I am and wanting her to accept me as. I am not trying to start dating just more wanting to know if the coast is clear to ask her if I felt like it was time. Thank you guys for replying and I want to do what she would expect of me later instead of doing a textbook rehearsal for asking her out. Thanks again and I think this will just be how I want to progress. Also I may be over thinking it because this is the first time I have really felt this for someone and I haven't dated/had a girlfriend in the past so I think I'll just trust my confidence along on this one and if I get rejected I might ask for advice later.

It feels good to have sent that but I have no idea on how to take the response although I feel like I got big timed friend zoned but I live with it.

Can you help me enterpret her response? She said "I don't want thing to be awkward at all it's fine right now and in a few months you'll get over me so problem solved 😬" that's the exact quote misspells and all. I might be missing an obvious sign just because I am a little too optimistic or because this is my first time ever trying to ask a person out or just because she is the only person who I can really relate too. I AM CLUELESS WHEN MY EMOTIONS GET THE UPPERHAND ON ME.

Owen,

Shes not interested. Shes telling you that you should get over her.

Exactly.

As for the original poster - please accept what she is saying on its face. She does not want to have that sort of a relationship with you.