I'M in love with a celebrity

hello i'm a gay guy in his late 20's and i'm in love with a guy called Danny Miller who stars in Emmerdale. I've been in love with him for 8 years and i just can't stop thinking about him. i can't wait to go to sleep every night so i can fantasize and dream about us being together. i have over 300,000 followers on twitter and i tweet/dm him all the time he follows me and sometimes replies and i feel like we have a connection but i know deep down we don't. i find myself messaging him anything just to try to get a response but i don't want to get to a point where he blocks me. my bedroom is full of his posters. i have mouse pads, picture folders, dvd's of his scenes etc and i know i sound crazy, pathetic and sad but i can't help it. he gave me the courage to come out to my family and even tho my family knows i love him but they don't know i'm at a point where i feel physically sick when i think of him and i cry near enough every day because i can't be with him. he's straight and i'm gay but i keep thinking maybe if we met (which we have once and he gave me a kiss on the cheek) he would like me and we'd fall in love ahhhh i know that sounds crazy. i wanna know what i could do. i'm 29, living with my mum and I've never had a boyfriend maybe that's a part of it? it's getting harder and harder each day. thank you