emotional distress and reminders

I cant keep living with my mind the way it is. It hurts quite a lot. Even if I don't share a lot of things, well its mostly the same things on loop so whats the point of sharing it but the frequency of everything. Even when im out with everyone n doing things. Its not like, ok im busy so those thoughts about how things are n how they should be dont happen. Everything reminds me of some past event that hurt or something that shouldnt be the way it is. Life is for those who know where they going to or have a goal in mind. The medication helps not talk about things, but it doesn't mean my mind isn't constantly thinking or being reminded of situations, past events and crap. They still there and it still causes pain and hurt. its the hurt and memories of things that I want to stop.

No one can live like this, it isnt a life worth living. its not the fact that if I dont stop with the idea of suicide that I wont start living or things wont change, its if the thoughts n **** that goes on in my head doesnt stop, I wont start living. And thats never going to happen especially with daily reminders about stuff. The suicide and wanting to die constantly is just a bi product of my thoughts, feelings and pain. If people realise that it wouldnt really help my situation. Just theirs I guess. but it may help me find what I need for a peaceful exit versus a bag over my head.

https://disqus.com/home/channel/myfriendspainanddeath/discussion/channel-myfriendspainanddeath/pain_versus_living_or_death/


http://able2know.org/topic/249416-1

http://suicideproject.org/2014/07/euthanasia-assisted-death-and-nembutal/