@momoends,
momoends wrote:
that God hasn't´t communicated with me at all, then it lacks the ability to do so.... then there´s no God for me
I agree. If a god exists and expects certain behavor from you where as if you fail, youll be punished for failure, then it is this gods absolute responsibity to clearly and definitively communicate where you personally could understand without doubt. Since this has not occured, it can be said no such god exists or if one still does it is fully responsible for your failure and it shouldbe the one that is punished.
logic 101